Today's epic realization: I am already better.

In fact, some days I would dare say I am better than better. (I'm talking about my recovery of course, but isn't it amazing how much that blends into the rest of our lives as stroke survivors?) 

But it's true when I think about it! I have days when I am so functional that even I can't tell that I have had one stroke, let alone two of them. My hand works and I have all of the fine motor control. My leg co-operates and I can walk normally. There are days when I feel literally STRONG and can lift more than quite a few of the able-bodied people at the gym. There are days when my muscles actually relax and I can yoga and stretch with the best of them. 

The trouble is that I have difficulty maintaining that functionality. I can only keep it going for a few minutes, tops, before all of my limitation come rolling back in. This is literally the most frustrating experience of my life. 

But I know that I am supposed to be learning something from this. Somehow, in the grand scheme of things, this is all being used. I have believed that for years and years now, and I see evidence of it every day. So maybe it isn't that bad.... 

To me though, this means something... the fact that I remember how to be able-bodied means something. I think (and I hope!) that it means that one day I am going to get better again.

Or maybe I already am better......?